There are, easily, 30 boxes of books in our attic. Orphans from our move from an apartment to this house four years ago. Books that used to have a home on a shelf, but in this new place were left stranded.
Our apartment had a long entry hall that was lined with bookcases. The space swallowed stuff up and still there was always room for more. Here, in the house, the walls are taken by windows and furniture, cabinets filled with vinyl (8,000 records at last count) and the hallways are narrow. The two library cases we have in the living room are modest, not a big enough home for all the books we own.
So when I went looking for an old Raymond Carver book the other day, I was pretty sure I wasn’t going to find it. Digging through the boxes in the attic is a dreary and disheartening chore. To my surprise, the Carver book—Where I’m Calling From—was right here, in the living room, on the shelf, waiting for me.
I’ve fallen in and out of love with Carver’s writing countless times over the years. Sometimes his words have spoken to me in the way that words should. And other times, I have been unmoved.
A friend who teaches writing recently told me that she teaches a lot of Carver in her classes. That’s what motivated me to look for the book. I love rediscovering something that’s been languishing on the shelf, in the stacks, or in a box—that’s why I have a hard time letting my books go. That’s why I have 30 boxes of books in the attic.
I think I’m going to pick my way through the Carver again. I won’t reread every story, but certainly some, enough. Because there’s something to be learned from the way he captures that moment when life takes a wrong turn, the way he takes an everyday event and hands you the horror hidden in the folds. And a hint of possibility—he gives you that too. And that’s not an easy thing to do.
“That’s all we have, finally, the words, and they had better be the right ones, with the punctuation in the right places… “
~Raymond Carver
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Thanks, too, for the kind words and get well wishes. Our boy is home again today, but more like his old self. He’s even a little bossy and demanding, like someone sprinkled him with seasoned pepper during the night and left him to marinate. Peppery, that’s it. Yesterday he was weepy and sad, today he’s coughing and sneezing and spicy and spirited. Guess that means he’s feeling better.